To my dear Father and Mother:
I was so lucky ever since
I was given my life life some twenty years ago that I was brought up
ever deprived of anything. Under the love and affection of my loving
parents, and younger sister, I was so fortunate to spend such happy
days. I say this in face of the fact that at times I had a tendency
to act in a spoiled and selfish manner. Throughout, of all of us siblings,
I was the one who caused you, Father and Mother, the most worry. It
pains my heart that my time will come before I can return, or try to
return, any of these favors I received. But in Japan, where loyalty
to the Emperor and filial piety are considered one and the same thing,
and total royalty to the nation is a fulfillment of filial piety, I
am confident of your forgiveness.
As a member of the flying
staff, I spent each and every day with death as the premise. Every letter
and each word I wrote consituted my last will and testament. In the
sky so high above, death is never a focus of fear. Will in fact die
when I hit the target? No, I cannot believe that I am going to die,
and, there was even a time when I felt a sudden urge somehow to dive
into a target. The fact of the matter is that I am never afraid of death,
and, to the contrary, I even welcome it. The reason fo this is my deep
belief that, through death, I'll be able to get together again with
my beloved older brother, Tatsu. To be reunited with him in heaven is
what I desire the most. I did not have any specific attitude toward
life and death. My reasoning was that the cultivation of a specific
attitude toward life and death would amount to an attempt to give a
meaning and value to death, something that would have to stem from a
person's utter fear of an uncertain death. My belief is that death is
a passage leading to reunion with my loved ones in heaven. I am not
afraid to die. Death is nothing to be afraid of when you look at it
as just a stage in the process of ascending to heaven.
Succinctly speaking, I
have always admired liberalism, mainly because I felt that this politecal
philosophy was the only one to follow were Japan really to survive eternally.
Perhaps this sort of thinking seems foolish' but it is only because
Japan is currently drowned in totalitariansim. Nevertheless, and this
state of affairs notwithstanding, it will be clear to any human being
who sees clearly and is willing to reflect on the very nature of his
or her humanity that liberalism is the most logical ideology.
It seems to me that a nation's
probable success in the prosecution of a war would, on the very basis
of that nation's ideology, be clearly evident even before the war was
fought. It would in fact be so obvious that eventual victory would clearly
be seen to belong to the nation that holds a natural ideology,i.e.,
an ideology which in its way is constitutive of human nature itself.
My hope of making Japan
like the British Empire of the past has been utterly defeated. At this
point, therefore, I gladly give up my life for Japan's liberty and independence.
While the rise and fall
of one's nation is indeed a matter of immense importance for any human
being, the same shift dwindles to relative insignificance when and if
that same human being places it within the context of the universe as
a whole. Exactly as the saying has it, "Pride goeth before a fall (or,
those who savor victory will soon find themselves in the camp of the
defeated), "and, even if America and Great Britain turn out to be victorious
against us, they will eventually learn that the day of their own defeat
is imminent. It pleases me to think that, even if they are not to be
defeated in the near future, they may be turned to dust anyway through
an explosion of the globe itself. Not only that, but the people who
are getting the most fun out of life now are most certainly doomed to
die in the end. The only difference is whether it comes sooner or later.
In the drawer, right side
of my bookcase, in the annex of the house, you will find the book I
am leaving behind. If the drawer does not open, please open the left
drawer and pull out a nail --- then try the right drawer again.
Well, then, I pray that
you will take good care of yourselves.
My very best to my big
brother [i.e., the older of the two elder brothers], sister Kiyoko,
and to everyone.
Well, then, Good-bye.
Gokigen-yo(Farewell). Good-bye forever.